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[Jan. 16th, 2005|11:46 pm] |
oh ya by the way
FUCK YOU DAVE COHEN |
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| fuck you all |
[Jan. 16th, 2005|11:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | the screaming yelling kind maybe | ] |
my conversation with dave cohen...
Starrlite205: a lot of my 'friends' really just made me realize that they're not really my 'friends'
Starrlite205: or rather my friend
drxex: howd they manage to make you realize that
Starrlite205: i tried to contact them and they didnt call
Starrlite205: or i hung out with them and then they just didnt care
Starrlite205: it was stupid
drxex: eh so theyre flakes
Starrlite205: ya
drxex: california is 99% flakes
drxex: i hate fuckin flakes
Starrlite205: people i least expected
drxex: i hope you dont think i flaked on you
Starrlite205: ehhh tons of people did its cool
Starrlite205: i just dont care anymore
drxex: well i didnt i just couldnt make it
drxex: i wanted to for once go down to see you rather than you coming up to MA
Starrlite205: ya
Starrlite205: its fine
drxex: but whatever you still have to hold to yr promise and come chill here
Starrlite205: i will cuz i keep them
drxex: good for you
Starrlite205: yup
drxex: so how drunk are you
Starrlite205: not that bad
drxex: you seem to be typing ohkay
Starrlite205: i'm just really pissed
Starrlite205: i'm just mad
drxex: dont be angry
Starrlite205: i am
drxex: it's bad to be angry
Starrlite205: i'm mad at the world
Starrlite205: well maybe not the world
drxex: it's all for the best
Starrlite205: but some people in it
Starrlite205: you know when you feel like you are the only one who wants to see your so called friends...have you ever gotten that?
Starrlite205: or the only one who seemed to care
drxex: yeah
Starrlite205: ya well thats how i feel right now
drxex: it's prolly why i dont hang out w/ too many people here
drxex: i only have a few really good friends
Starrlite205: well thats what i thought i had...
Starrlite205: but it turns out that i didnt
Starrlite205: and its still turning out that way
drxex: is it really that bad
Starrlite205: do you know what i did the whole break a whole bunch of nothing
Starrlite205: thats what i fucking did
drxex: that stinks i had a pretty nice adventure
Starrlite205: well thats good i'm glad
drxex: why didnt you come to MA
Starrlite205: cuz no one fucking called or asked
Starrlite205: i just dont invite myself
Starrlite205: i'm not like that
drxex: well i called
drxex: i wanted to coem down
Starrlite205: ya
Starrlite205: you did
drxex: but if you wanted to you coulda just been like "hey why dont i just come up this weekend"
Starrlite205: i did say that
Starrlite205: and you were like alright
Starrlite205: i'll call you and you never did
Starrlite205: but i'm not mad at you
Starrlite205: you DID call
drxex: i didnt call cus i knew i had no way of getting to RI
drxex: it's all good
drxex: i shoulda just called again and invited you up
drxex: but it wasnt my place, i was the guest at people's places
Starrlite205: i said i'd come get you
drxex: yeah you did
drxex: dang.
drxex: listen i have to go
drxex: i will make it up to you though
drxex: sorry
Starrlite205: alright...bye
thanks to all me FRIENDS...i just fucking love you all |
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| the scream |
[Dec. 30th, 2004|01:29 am] |
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
nope still dont feel any better |
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| Friday the 13th |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|10:12 pm] |
Not that it's a new thing but there's a lot of unhappy people in this world. So many with negative attitudes about everything. Right now I'm right with those unhappy people...I hate my fucking job...I am sick and tired of cleaning up after people (positive side...great money)! But thats what chamberbabes are for right?? I really just want to be back at school...
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you meet someone for the first time...and then you can't get them out of your head...and you wanna be yourself around them (and you are-sorta) but you hide everything...people should grow some friggin' balls and tell people what they really feel and not be so descret about everything...oh well I'm guilty of that one. |
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| on the road to find myself... |
[May. 9th, 2004|11:56 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
Didn't take very long to write a new entry. but this was on my mind--
This year was amazing, I grew and learned so much about myself. Many people told me that this would be the hardest year of my life, and in many ways it was. It was a year that I will never forget. All my life i've been this sheltered, little independent girl who just wanted to find her own way in the world-and in many ways I have. from RI i went to meadville, pa (10 hours from home) to go to school at Allegheny and this is what i'd always wanted to be on my own and do things my way. and thats what i did, i found my own little nitch and i enjoyed myself (maybe a little too much) but you live and you learn.
someone out there opened my eyes and showed me that i shouldn't be so scared. i just wish it wasnt too late (if it is), things have changed, but you meant a lot to me and i miss you like crazy
maybe i just still havent found myself, i mean i'm still the independent girl that i've always been but maybe i just havent found my nitch in the world yet, but someday, somewhere i know i will... |
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| HOME |
[May. 9th, 2004|10:56 pm] |
I'm home, been home for a couple of days and have been extremely lazy, which has been wonderful. I'm going to DC on the 15th I might be meeting the president of the u.s.a. on the 18th so that will be exciting.
Can't wait to see everyone.
Ok funny story, I'm on my way back to RI and I'm getting out of my car to get something to drink and my cell falls right into a puddle. It ruined the screen and I lost all my numbers, but it still worked. I finally go a new one, but I have to get everyone's numbers back. So give me a call. |
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| homeward bound |
[May. 4th, 2004|10:48 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | On the Road Again... | ] |
Well its 10:49 pm on Wed!!!! I'm leaving tomorrow bright and early with my daddy! I'll miss all the fun times here at the 'gheny! Thanks to everyone who made it such an awesome first year! Ducky aka Drinking Buddy-we are just ridiculous and crazy what can I say! You've made this year a lot of fun, without you I dont know what I would have done! I would love to list all of you who are awesome but you all are so you know who you are, just remember all our crazy times here! And I know things will work themselves out, they always seem to :) Next year in our quad with Caitlin will be awesome!! This summer should be a lot of fun and a great break from all the work and stress here at school! I'm def. looking forward to seeing all my friends back home, this summer will be amazing! Have a great summer everyone, I'll miss ya'll but i'll see ya all next year.
over and out meadville pa
SaMmY |
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| dazed and confused and exhausted |
[May. 4th, 2004|01:12 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  indescribable | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Maybe It's Me ~ Ingram Hill | ] |
i'm feeling pretty sad :( i'm almost leaving...mixed emotions about that. i'm single again, and i'm kinda don't know exactly what i'm feeling. theres this one song by ingram hill that sums it up
~Maybe It's Me~
On the radio this morning
They played our song
Thought about the good times
And I wonder what went wrong
Miscommunication?
Or 'cause you had no faith in me
Lack of inspiration
Or maybe, maybe it's just me
There's life that surrounds me
But still I cannot see
I just can't make my heart fall
For beauty endlessly
I don't know what I'm feeling
It's not right, it can't be
I try to find someone to blame
But maybe, maybe it's just me
The end of the song does not really apply, so i left it out
well good night
~SaMmY |
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| response |
[Apr. 21st, 2004|11:38 pm] |
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| |  annoyed | ] |
I just have one small thing to say...i got really pissed about the comment someone wrote. you are def. entitled to your opinions but if you dont want to read something that you feel is boring then dont, i dont give a shit really that you think my life is 'manic depressive' and lame, i'm not that sorry for that. there are a lot of boring journals out there so then i dont read them. so if your stupid enough to be reading this then your just a dumb ass. :) have a good one
and yes i just want to go home...i miss everything back home. my friends, my family, my bed, a clean shower without flip flops, my own room without a roommate!!
lata |
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| SpringFest |
[Apr. 18th, 2004|07:34 pm] |
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I dont really care to talk about Friday at all. Other then some funny points...
1)singing Kokomo by the beach boys in my room with Laura, Jinelle, Caitlin, Lindsay (we do have a video tape of this).
2)The Beach and some random house with cross country people, doug, cody, the girls mentioned above. all i needed was the ocean and it would have been perfect.
3)Walking around...ending up at the commons...where amy hugs laura who falls into a very prickly bush, and luckily i wasnt drunk so i could pick her up cuz she couldnt by herself, getting kicked out of the delt quad cuz they thought she was sick but all she really had to do was use the bathroom
4)then the night goes sour...i cried, she cried-everyone trying to comfort everyone
5)to some house...
6)back to baldwin, and then out to some swimmer house with jinelle and caitlin-fun times...
~it seemed like a lot of people had a shitty night...i realized that people have really changed...(there were really bad parts of the night around point #4 but i didnt want to mention it.
Saturday Night-vodka and rum the only way i do it
1)hung out with adam
2)sig cookout-thats where things get hazy...but i remember it was a fun time.
3)hanging out with lauren, jen and their friend...fun times
4)random pictures with random people
5)some other house...where i paid for beer that i didnt get...
6)football house=fun
7)some other house...running down the street
8)may have gone to some other houses...but really cant remember
9)bentley-the tree, the door, and adam...haha
10)back to adams
11)passing out in my room...
what a weekend and in the words of adam "springfest is overrated"
~SaMmY |
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